Dear Robert Waggoner,
There’s a continuous narrative that I have been experiencing in Lucid dreams for about 7 years. The narrative has progressed but it only seems to become more and more mysterious and confusing. Recently, I came across your lectures and interviews on youtube (very eager to read your book!) and the experiences you shared has brought some understanding but also invited in new questions. What happens is that I can only interact with dream figures so long as they don’t know that I am lucid, and if they do find out that I am, they will attack me in some way so to wake me up.
The strangest part, though, is that this goes for all except one. There’s this one dream figure that will actively try to prompt me into realizing I am dreaming so that they may speak to me, and at times they will seem conscious and in control of the situation even if I am not myself. In regular dreams, I will see them staring at me as though waiting for an opportunity to engage into speaking; they will often take me away from those dream figures or else, or act along with the dream narrative searching for a window to interact with me. After I started to watch your videos, I decided I should address directly to the larger consciousness so to ask why are my dream figures aren’t collaborating except for that one, and what would they represent.
However, on my latest experience, I called out to the dream consciousness and I got no response. Now I’m wondering if it could be that this particular dream figure is the embodiment of my larger consciousness. Also, I’m wondering if there’s anything that could be done regarding the other figures. It might be worth mentioning that the aware figure is someone I know in real life but am not at all intimate to, and they seem to behave quite strangely in my presence, which leads me to wonder whether it could be that this is not a dream figure but somehow and independent consciousness. I’ve been struggling with this for quite a while and I would love to hear your thoughts on it all. If you’d have any information or advice to offer so to help me progress on this path, I would be forever grateful. Thank you for your time and your wonderful contribution.